I.     Lexapro
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Like a booster detached from a shuttle, my bodyÂ
Ended up in an ocean while fog enshrouded my mind.Â
Xanax never made me feel that unsteady; it just didnât
Agree with Lamictal. I was glad my wife could ceaseÂ
Preparing herself mentally before coming home; Iâd been a
Rakshasa for months & appeared to be normal
Overnight, but the low dose made me immune to emotion.
Poetry
Better Days
Lifting Visqueen veils spread over little darlings,Â
selecting seedlings to set each predawn rise.
We coffeed up, chewed rumors, shared ourselves Â
wherever needed without a hint of roundwormÂ
belly, malathion burn, or pay bounce still to come.Â
El cuerpo avisa
By LUPE MENDEZ
Todo mi maĂz se llevĂł, ni paâcomer me dejĂł
El BarzĂłn.
âLuis PĂ©rez Meza
Esas tierras del rincĂłn,
I look at them como un buey pando,
feeling the dry earth, crunch under
my boots.           Es Julio, y si sigue asi,
dirĂĄn que es sequĂa.   I pray it is not.
Drifting
Not the circus of constellationsÂ
rifled with shooting stars Â
from nights we slept by the river.Â
The Gardener
Winner of the 2023 DISQUIET Prize for Poetry
Iâve been negotiating my fears with speaking.
After a life of being half-heard;
after half a life of being unheard, I now think of the chaos
I avoided in this abstinence. In some stories Jesus
is not the fool, keeping himself
to himself, knowing only God knows
NoeÌ
Neither of us see or hear the kittens
when we set the garbage pile at the farm on fire.
We come back to spines and white smokeâ
that means a new Pope is comingâ
The Weeds
âBy the sweat of your brow
you will eat your food
until you return to the ground,
since from it you were taken;
for dust you are
and to dust you will return.â
       Genesis 3:19
i.
In many ways we knew we had no choice.
We woke in time to tell the stars goodnight,
Returned to broken homes and heard the fights.
When a Missile Finds a Home
Cat in the windowÂ
examines the snowflakes that floatâÂ
marks of art in the winter darkÂ
Itâs a Christmas Eve in my homelandÂ
the things to comeÂ
waiting to be unwrappedÂ
In A Word
By MARC VINCENZ
For your ears, in your exile, in your comfort zone, in which you fly unscathed, unsheathed, into the scarlet reveries, in your scarf and hands where the hum of time seems like a downpour, or the dizzying heights of mountain crags, the sharp flashes of light that become visible in the no-longer-already night. Here in the deep darkening center, in the storm of spring or the silence and its willow tree, in the serenade on the veranda, or the poplar spires, in the furrows and the silt, do you believe the true believer may be risen from the dead? Hold the fire and the ever-transforming, the endless sky or the filthy sewage which spews out under the shadows, which they say settles the soul. You will emerge as you do, in all your manifolds, in the siege and in amongst the vagabonds and the wayfarers, the heavenly debate in the afterworldâall those among us searching for safety. Here we are heathens, the lamb and temples that rise over the hills. Yesterday had us back among you in the proud fight, where the stained glass was the mirror and shattered our pride. Earn your trust, they say. Werenât we the ones who lifted the dead, who muttered their prayers accordingly, where every motion was a waveringâso estranged we were in the dayâs endâthe words, the word, the faces were etched in their smiles. Take the last sheaf of paper and hold it up to the window. Take the benevolence of any kindred spirit and let it arise. The book ends somewhere.Â
Bruh
after Jamaica Kincaid
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be honest with your psychiatrist about how the meds have kept you from cumming:Â
even while fantasizing about Priyanka Chopraâher cascading curls,Â
tumbling down her shoulders; donât feel ashamed after your lover has suggestedÂ
other ways to be intimate: like learning how to speak Urdu so that on sleepless nightsÂ
you can recite Ghalibâs ghazals to her while holding hands near the mango tree;Â
on the rare chance youâre not awake, smash the snooze button;Â
continue dreaming about a world where you donât perceive that therapyÂ
is just for white folks; forget what your family says; you canât shake off suicidal