By MARTHA COOLEYÂ
In my late thirties, when for a short period I lived in Moscow, I sometimes wondered if there were too many words in the English language. Longing and desire, for instance: was it really necessary to have both? Couldnât a single, flexible word suffice? Maybe want would work. Not need; that was different.Â
Having plenty of words at our disposal wasnât doing Jack and myself much good, in any case. We were at an impasseâmy word for it now, though back then I mightâve called it a checkpoint. Jack wouldâve have named it a choice-point, I imagine. At any rate, although neither of us was skittish about talking, we couldnât seem to find common verbal ground, and our conversations had grown increasingly fraught. My husband wanted a kid; I wanted to want one, which wasnât the same thing. You like adventures, Jack kept saying. Youâre a curious person; youâve always been open to new experiences. Yes, I kept responding, but this isnât an adventure weâre talking about. We can bail out of an adventure if itâs not right; we canât do that with a kid. What do you mean by right? Jack kept asking, and though I tried, I couldnât give him or myself a clear answer. Right as in natural? As in obvious? As in doable?
